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From the desk of an ex-stoner ...

Dear reader. We are in troubling times. While men in suits are legalizing marijuana left and right, kids around the world are using it carefree. The days when you had to call a dealer, meet in some random back alley and pray that your neighbour won’t smell it are gone. Marijuana is now somewhere on the par with alcohol. Fully legal and supported by state. Crazy times, right?

10 years ago I would laugh at this. A, because I was abusing it daily, meaning I don’t need to wake up my dealer on Monday morning – I can just walk to the shop. B, because texts like the one above would sound hilarious in my rebel brain. If only I could see the future ..

Hello, my name is Anze and I am an addict

It all started one Wednesday evening. I remember it like it’s been yesterday. I met my landlord that morning, paid him a deposit and rent, went to the shop and got back to meet my flatmates. No one was home, so I went out and explored. Later in the afternoon I came back and stayed in the living room. My new flatmates were slowly coming back from work. First one in were Will and Ben. “Did you get it?” – “Yeah, I did. Do you have rizlas?” – “Yeah I do, let’s roll one”. Back then, I had no clue what rizla is. Neither did I know what “roll one” means. Yet there I was, few hours later puffing in marijuana and laughing.

Soon I was the one rolling. Not only I wanted to get my status in the group I also loved the idea of getting myself high. I saw in the movies, I read in the books, the escape, the youth, the fun, I wanted all of it. And fun it was. For a while. 

Until it became a habit. An expensive one as well. My part time job didn’t bring in enough money, so I had to find a full time job. To support my habit. Things settled down for a bit. I now had a full time job, and a second job back home that didn’t pay. Smoking all evening after all requires time and dedication.

An opportunity came to be self-employed. The idea that I can work whenever I want and earn more money that I do now? Sign me up. With self-employment comes the flexibility and responsibilities. A responsiblity to decide whether I’m going to work Wednesday morning or light up a joint and relax. I choose the latter. At that point, I didn’t even need my flatmates anymore, I was solo-dolo, making dough and smoking herb.

Sooner or later, I was working to pay off my drug habit. My activities were limited to smoking, shopping what’s necessary, staying indoors when possible, having as minimum human contact as possible.

Then came the realization. I barely had any friends, I was struggling to pay rent and I didn’t go anywhere for a while. I was rotting away at 25 years of age. I need to take a break was my first course of action. I failed. I could not stay away from marijuana for a day. I had a serious problem.

What if I cut down or smoke only on the weekends?

If there was a way for me to get back to the old Anze, the one struggling and figuring things out in his mid 20s, I would pay millions. But there is no way. Noawadays, I’m laughing to all the nonsense I did, but back then those were my actual serious attempts. 

First few months I would be a daily smoker. I would get marijuana in the afternoon, smoke everything by evening, have my ceremonial last joint before the midnight and begin a new day renewed. Next day I restarted the whole process.

Then I managed to hold longer and become a weekend smoker. I would cut down my use during the week, only to be stoned the whole weekend. My Fridays would be the best days of the week, as I knew I would get high in the afternoon and I would remain high until Sunday. This went on for a while.

I guess what makes this hilarious is the fact it took me months to realize what I’m doing. I wasn’t cutting down, I was compensating. I really needed a break.

Me on a Friday evening, high as a kite.

I need to quit marijuana, but I don't want anyone to know about it

The worst days were about to come. I realized that my habit got me deep into the rabbit hole and kept me there. The fact that I could not quit marijuana made me feel powerless and down right useless. The regret of throwing away my best years and the realization of my current situation kept me sinking every night. If before I was smoking because I could, now I was smoking because I couldn’t stop. I woke up feeling like a hero, ready to take on the world, only to go to bed stoned and hopeless, as I did it again. Days and days. 

And then I took a break and went abroad. I decided to go back home for few weeks to see if a change in environment will help. It did. I only smoked once that time, my first few weeks off marijuana after years of abuse. I felt amazing. I felt like a man. I felt reborn.

I came back. And got right back into the pattern. The break helped, but not for long. It was time for a new strategy.

I will smoke when I'm 70 or 80, I can enjoy it then

Starting my removals business (I covered the signage, as the previous company left it on and it's still trading)

By this point, I had some mileage. I knew I cannot moderate it, nor can I smoke it occassionally. But I didn’t want to let it go. After all there was still a part of me that wanted to smoke. I had to make a mental decision and take a very long break from marijuana.

I decided I’m going to focus on my career. I spent enough time smoking and throwing my potential away. The next few months is when I really started feeling the difference. My brain was sharp, my mood was stable, I was able to recall memories instantly and I started socializing again. Life was stable. My triggers didn’t disappear, but I kept going.

Then came the summer of 2019. It was Sunday, hot summer day and I was about to go enjoy the beach. I decided I’m going to see my solicitor beforehand to sort some papers. We ended up having a huge argument, I left angry and dissapointed. The person who should work with me, was working against me! I decided I needed a joint. Just one joint. Why wait until I’m 80, I’m fine now.

My dealer wasn’t having it. Either you take the whole bag or you get it from somewhere else. I took the whole bag.

That Sunday I smoked the whole bag. Following week I was stoned every single day. All my progress vanished in a couple of minutes.

The Trap

I often refer to this part of my journey the trap, simply because I was stuck in the middle, a limbo if you will (this is by far the biggest issue when I coach people).

By this point I knew cutting down, taking a break, or delaying it until I’m older is not working for me. I also knew what the solution was, but I really didn’t want to acknowledge it. Why me? Why do I have to quit marijuana? My friend Joe seems to be fine smoking every day (he wasn’t). What about all those people on the TV that get high and seem to live a perfect life? Why they get to use it and have fun?

My mind was going wild. On one side, I knew what I have to do, yet on the other one I kept doing the same thing I was trying not to do for the last few years. It’s almost like I was prolonging the inevitable. 

For the next few months I was being an adult child. I kept on smoking, rejecting the obvious course of action, while being angry at myself for not doing what I knew I should do. The pandemic hit the final nail in the coffin.

Goodbye marijuana, it was fun knowing you

In August 2020 I had my last joint. I don’t know the exact day, but I do know I had enough of my bullsh*t excuses. It was also the time when I realized Covid pandemic is not going away soon and my landlord decided to sell the flat. You could say it was an accumulation of factors, but really it was my stoner career that was coming to an end. Of course, I wasn’t out of the water yet.

After leaving my old flat in September, I came to a new place with new people. As luck would have it, three of the flatmates were heavy smokers, one a heavy drinker. It seemed the curse was following me. 

The reality is I knew what I had gone through and I wasn’t going to throw this away for anyone. Looking back, being in that flat might have seemed like the worst idea, but it was actually the best idea. I had all the temptation possible, yet I never caved. I also got to see first hand what marijuana  (and alcohol) abuse does to a person and how destructive it can be.

Towards the end of August I had two big milestones happen. My older sister got married and gave birth to twins. I became an uncle. The new era began!

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The actual my last joint

Days were going on. My birthday was coming up, November 11th. I was about two and half months into my cannabis free life, even though I stopped counting days and processing the fact I’m no longer smoking. At that point, the world was in the heights of pandemic, with the new lockdown fully in place.

A good friend of mine invited me to his house to celebrate my 30th. I wasn’t really keen on the idea, not only we were in lockdown, I also stopped having birthday parties back in my mid 20s (the social anxiety from all the smoking and isolation made me paranoid, I prefered to be a loner).

I went to see him. We had a drink and then he gave me a gift – a joint. He knew I quit by that point, he also knew about my struggle. I wasn’t angry though, he had a valid excuse – I was 30! I declined a joint, he kept pushing, so I ended up putting it in the pocket and taking it with me back home. On the way home the only thing that was on my mind was that joint.

Back in the days when I was a daily smoker, I would finish all the marijuana in the evening and throw everything away. In my mind, I had to clean the room and keep the “tiger” out of my room. Yet here I was coming back home with a joint. 

I was anxious. Paranoid. What am I gonna do with the joint? I decided to sit down before I go to my room and think this through. Just coming back home was a trigger for me. When I would work long hours, coming back home with a fresh bag of marijuana made me want to have it all. 

But this time was different. It wasn’t a full bag, and I knew what happens afterwards. I have been here way too many times.

Then it hit me. This is my last joint. If the world comes to an end, if the aliens invade, I will have this joint. But for now, I will keep it on the shelf. As a reminder of what I went through and the idea that can always go back to smoking. But I choose not to.

Hello triggers and cravings, where have you been

A new year started, pandemic was still around, and I was getting better. What remained to be solved were triggers and cravings. As for triggers I knew by that point I have to face them head on, rather than running away. Cravings were the one that kept me in fear, worrying I’m going to relapse.

With the pandemic in full effect, I had plenty of time for research. And research I did. I found every possible book on planet Earth that mentioned cravings. This if the first time I learned about Allen Carr, Gabor Mate and others.

It’s also the first time I realized I still have desires to use marijuana. I knew from my experience and past memories, what smoking does to me, but I didn’t realize that I still cherish marijuana. I started attacking my false beliefs. Why do I want to use marijuana? What do I get out of it? Is marijuana really relaxing me? Am I really having a good time when I smoke? Do I think marijuana will help me in the future?

Everytime I got a craving, I challenged it in my head. I wouId have conversations with myself. Sometimes I would play the tape to see where I was going (google “play the tape forward concept”). Quickly I realized all those cravings were just false beliefs. The beliefs I held in my subconcious mind that kept me desiring something I knew it’s not helping me.

It was time to let go. I still get cravings nowadays. Very very rarely, but they appear. I have to stay vigilant, deal with them head on and not get scared.

MY LAST JOINT project is born, podcast comes out

In August of 2021 a major event happened. My grandma, my favourite person in the whole world died. I was devastated. Horrified. All the repressed emotions of regret, love and abandonment came up.I realized I neglected her last few years, while putting marijuana on pedestal. Not only her, my whole family. 

Losing my grandma made me really realize the extent of my addiction. I often heard about missed opportunities or time wasted, but what anyone rarely talks about is the effect of addiction on your family and friends. On her funeral day I promised myself I will make it a life mission to help others quit marijuana. I never want anyone else to be in the same position, staring at the gravestone and regretting your decisions last few years.

I wasn’t really sure how or where to start. I was already active in the r/leaves subreddit throughout the year and I had a domain which I can use. The idea for the podcast came about. What if I interview people that had dealings with marijuana and publish conversations online?

First few interviews were horrible. The microphone quality, the pen tapping, the questions. But I kept going. 

I’m now at episode 70. You can check out my podcast here.

Trying out new webcam

Doubts, insecurities and empty bank account

I was slowly ploughing forward with my project. I knew what is my vision, but I had my own problems to deal with (still have). Smoking marijuana every day for 7 years leaves consequences. My attention span was short. My mood was flunctuating. If I thought in my 20s I’m very self-confident, I now realized I’m quite the opposite. 

Marijuana was my comfort blanket, hiding my actual problems. When I removed marijuana, all the repressed emotions started coming up. The shame, the guilt. I had to push myself to uncover those emotions, face them head on. 

There was also the financial issue. Smoking marijuana everyday took a tool on my bank account. I was living day-to-day, not saving for my future or keep any savings in case things go wrong.

Realizing I have to start again was a painful realization. But I had something. I had the experience of picking myself up and setting things right. The strenght, the endurance and the discipline to keep going, regardless of what happens. I had a new foundation and it’s stronger than ever.

MY LAST JOINT Community starts accepting members

Around May of this year I decided to add community to MY LAST JOINT.

Interviewing guests on my podcast and having offline conversations with people in r/leaves and over the email made me realize that support is essential to success. Thinking back, before my 20s and my life now (last few months), having a strong, reliable support system in place is what kept and keeps me going.

I still think podcast is a great motivator and gives you lots of relatable content, but community is where you get to find others and be accountable. I first made the community paid, but then decided to open it for everyone and keep it free forever. 

Community is now accessible via the link here.

How can I benefit from MY LAST JOINT

If you made this far down the page, I thank you. I wanted to share my whole story and the evolution of MY LAST JOINT project (so far), because I want to make sure you have all the facts. Trusting someone to help you deal with something as personal as quitting marijuana is important.

The whole idea behind MY LAST JOINT is to help anyone quit marijuana, regardless of their age, gender, location or situation they are in. But, I’m still a one man team, and as bold as the above sentence is, there is only so much I can do in 24h.

Currently there is plenty of free stuff you can benefit from. There is a podcast, which features people all around the world that successfully quit marijuana. I have a community where you can meet others and be accountable. I also made a special guide “How to quit marijuana in 2022” which you can download here.

The reality is however, if I want to grow MY LAST JOINT to a sustainable business that can offer people around the world an effective and reasonably priced solution, I have to be smart. This means working on things that matter (helping people quit) and bringing money in to grow the business (charging for it).

Since you are here, I’m assuming you could benefit from MY LAST JOINT. So I’m going to make you an offer.

New episode comes out every Monday and Thursday. Click the photo to see all the episodes.

The Offer

First off, I want to make few things clear. This offer is nothing like anything out there. I might have only started MY LAST JOINT last year, but I continiously do research and check what is out there. You are receiving so much value other people spend years learning.

When I was putting together the offer, I wanted to make sure you have all the aspects of quitting covered. Where to start, what to do (and what not to do), what to eat, how to tackle withdrawals, how to expose triggers, how to address cravings … the whole package. I also wanted to give you something you can use when you are travelling. There is a timeline, a journal, you even get a mobile app with access to the community.

What matters though is not what you get, but what you do with it. That’s why I added coaching to the offer. Because let’s be honest, if a book or a piece of information would make such a huge difference, there wouldn’t be any schools. I really believe coaching is the key to fast recovery from marijuana and a piece of puzzle that keeps you on the path of success in the future.

Last thing before I get to the offer. When you purchase MY LAST JOINT Program, please take action. Don’t be just another name on the list. I will check-in on you and give you as much support as I can, but ultimately it’s you who needs to do the first step.

What do you get

  • Where do I start? (overview of the program): a short document, outlining step by step process to start MY LAST JOINT Program. This will give you clear instruction on where to start and how to use the program.
  • How to quit marijuana in 2022 (extended edition); few weeks ago I released an episode on my podcast “How to quit marijuana in 2022” with a free guide. Seeing it was 2 years since I quit marijuana I wanted to do something special. I sat down and asked myself “what would I do if I had to start all over again?”. The result was a 6 page guide, summing up 5 years of my life. Lots of people loved it and are still downloading it. This is an extended edition, with added exercises. A must have for anyone quitting!
  • How NOT to quit marijuana; the same way I have put together a guide on how to quit, I reverse engineered the process and wrote down what not do. Considering what over 70 guests on the podcast shared with me, my offline conversations with hundreds of people around the world, and my own experience, I made a list of 15 common mistakes people do when quitting. This is a game changer and will save you months if not years of trial and error.
  • Podcast notes; if you are new to my podcast, I usually ask guests towards the end what three things would they advise to someone quitting marijuana. In the notes you will receive, I copied 3 things from each episode and added my own comments and remarks they said throughout the episode. You will get 70 hours of interviews with people that succesfully quit marijuana shortened in one document.
  • Quitting timeline; quitting marijuana after years of use can be confusing and painful process. This timeline will give you a rundown of what to expect and when to expect it. It will provide you with useful information about your brain, mood, sleep and behaviour changes. No more wondering or worrying about what’s coming.
  • Recovery journal; a 30-day journal that will help you track your progress and keep on you the path to recovery. You will be able to evaluate your emotions, record triggers, do daily affirmations, write down notes and read motivational quotes. It also comes with a calendar, so that you can count your days and be proud of how far you have come.
  • Diet plan; perhaps one of the most ignored aspect of quitting is the diet. The food we eat literally becomes who we are, and influences our physical, mental and emotinal well-being. This plan will give you over 60 meals to cook and eat while you are quitting marijuana. Packed with nutrition and wallet-friendly recipes, this is easy to replicate diet for any kitchen.
  • Conquering triggers and cravings; everyone quitting marijuana mentions cravings. Yet few are able to recognize their triggers and challenge them. With this guide, you will be able to recognize your triggers and crush them. By removing triggers, you have done the first step towards conquering your cravings. What’s missing is removing the desire to use. Without desire, there is no craving.
  • False beliefs (removing the desire); the most important aspect of quitting is this right here. Your false beliefs that keep you coming back to marijuana, even though you said you are not going to smoke. With this guide you will be able to uncover hidden false beliefs, crush them and forever destroy the desire to use. This is something you will rarely see in any recovery programs, but it’s the key to successful recovery. It’s why you (and I) have been stuck in the same pattern – starting and stopping. It’s the reason why many people cannot quit on their own. 
  • Life after marijuana; a simple guide with practical exercises to get you back on track and find your purpose. Smoking marijuana is a habit and you cannot just delete a habit, you have replace it. With this guide, you will never run out of options in your life.

What else you get

  • Coaching; buying MY LAST JOINT program also gives you access to coaching. We will address triggers, cravings, false beliefs, repressed emotions, behaviour patterns and many other aspects of quitting. As I mentioned before, what really makes the difference is you engaging in exercises and having a support system around you. To participate in coaching you will need microphone, web cam is optional.
  • Accountability partner; someone that checks in on you and supports you through the journey via phone and email.
  • Anonymity; if you are not comfortable sharing your full details, I can offer a confidential anonymous service. Please enquire over the email before the purchase for more info.
  • Access to private group; you get lifetime access to private group of people in the program, who are SERIES about quitting marijuana or have quit successfully before. An invaluable resource of support and information.
  • Lifetime access; You get a lifetime access to the program. This means you get to purchase program once and use it forever. This includes my support and coaching!
  • 30 day refund; I understand sometimes things don’t work out the way they should. I’m certain this program will help you quit marijuana, as long as you put in time and effort, however if for any reason you think this is not working, I will happily refund your money. No questions asked! I will however ask you to leave a bad review, as you should with any faulty product.
Program comes with 30-days money back guarantee, no questions asked

What do you really get

  • Control; you get to take control of your life and set your own terms. You gain power to make your own decisions and dictate your own schedule, without marijuana hijacking your thoughts.
  • Freedom; you break the invisible shackles of marijuana, keeping you chained to the same routine. You stop worrying when or how to get high. You get to enjoy reality, rather than hide or escape from it.
  • Memory; your memory improves and you get to remember what you did. Days are no longer just mindlessly passing by, you get to make memories and cherish them. Your vocabulary is better and stronger.
  • Presence; you become aware of surroundings and stay more present. You are no longer running to get high or planning your next joint, you get to enjoy the presence and live in the moment.
  • Focus; you get less distracted and mantain focus on what matters. You can do simple tasks faster, without your mind escaping or worrying. You enjoy the momentum of checking things-off, tasks that would before take you days to complete.
  • Time; you get back hours and days you have normally spent using marijuana. You have more time for hobbies and activities that help your wellbeing. Your days are longer.
  • Money; you save money you wasted buying marijuana. You no longer need to worry how you are going to pay rent or when your credit card bill is due. You get extra money, which you can use to treat yourself or save and invest for the future.
  • Stronger bonds; your relationships, partnerships and friendships become stronger. You are no longer carelessly just passing by or checking-in, you get to share moments and make new memories.
  • Emotions; (I was slightly reluctant to put this in, only because this is exactly the reason why some people smoke in the first place. But I think we all should cherish the emotions, it’s what makes us humas after all). You get to experience range of emotions and share them with your close support circle. You are no longer emotionally unavailable.

How do I know this is for me

There is no criteria for the program. To keep it simple, if you are trying to cut down, take a break or quit marijuana, but can’t, then it would be save to assume you have a problem.

Health specialists define Cannabis Use Disorder (which is marijuana addiction in essence) as the continiued use of cannabis despite clinically significant impairment. They put forward 11 criteria: hazardous use, social/interpersonal problems, neglected major roles, withdrawal, tolerance, using larger amounts/longer, repeated attempts to quit/control use, much time spent using, physical/psychological problems related to use, activities given up and craving. 

If you are looking for a simple, affordable solution, you can do from the comfort of your home, then this is for you. The program is designed so that anyone, without previous experience or any kind of diploma, can quit marijuana on their own. 

What if I'm not ready

I understand not everyone might be ready for a change. And that’s fine. However, seeing I talk with people quitting marijuana on a daily basis, I want to make you aware of few things:

  • It gets worse; Thinking back to my experience when I realized I need to quit marijuana, I had a period when I thought this will magically resolve itself. It didn’t. It got worse. There is an episode on my podcast, where an anonymous guest wrote a poem. She called it “a letter to cannabis: jails, institutions, death”. The longer you smoke, the worse it gets.
  • No one is coming to save you; Even though this happens very rarely, I have seen people imagine how their partner or a family member will save them. Sometimes they even get a job that requires drug testing. It’s important to have a support system and to make your friends and family aware of your problem, however unless the decision to quit comes from you, it won’t work. Another thing to note here – no addict ever advertises their struggle.
  • You will miss opportunities; Looking back at my 20s I went travelling, seen some beatiful places, met some amazing cultures and earned some money. However, I also wasted lots of time and missed many opportunities. I will never get my 20s back, but you still can.
  • Your mental health will suffer; Smoking weed made me moody, anxious, insecure, lonely and just overall depressed. Did I have some of those symtomps before? Absolutely! But once I knew marijuana is no longer good for me and I didn’t do what’s necessary, my mental health started seriously deterioating. Do this for you, you owe it to yourself.
  • You will waste money; at the height of my addiction, I was seeing my dealer once a day. That’s about $50 each day, smoked and vanished in the air. In a year, that’s around 18 thousand. Think how much you smoke and what you could do instead with that money.
  • Legalization (state your dealer); on the episode 5 of the podcast, my guest said he cannot even imagine how it would be quitting marijuana nowadays, with dispensaries everywhere you go and state being your dealer. Legalization is still in early stages, but it’s surely coming. Take the action today, don’t wait!
  • More THC, stronger marijuana; comparing marijuana today and 20 years ago is almost impossible. Marijuana strains and THC levels are advancing so fast even FDA cannot keep up with it. The vapes are reaching levels of 80% THC, which is beyond crazy. Psychosis and hallucations are now common side effects.
  • Your family and friends will suffer; you might not realize it yet, but your abuse of marijuana affects your family and friend. Majority of people that I interview on the podcast (&me including), report spending less time with their loved ones and being less present. Often there is a break in contact or cut of contact all together. Don’t make the same mistake as I did, some people might leave before you realize what you are doing.
  • You are prolonging the inevitable; so far I haven’t heard of one person whose addiction would get better without intervention. If you are younger, your brain will heal faster, but you have to start today. The older you are, the harder this gets. Stop waiting!

What if I don't want your program

Coming into my thirties, I have realized not everyone will connect with you or like what you do. Looking back at the struggle in my 20s and trying to quit gazillion times, I want to help you whether you take my program or not. Here are some other people/organizations doing similar to what I do:

  • Addiction Mindset: Dr. Frank has a considerable following on YouTube where he helps people overcome marijuana, THC, nicotine, energy drinks and porn addiction. Click here to visit his channel
  • Quit Weed: Tristan Weatherburn has an awesome digital program, even though I personally think it needs an update and more engagment. That being said, program is still very good for anyone quitting or starting the journey. Click here to check out his program
  • Weedless.org: a great resource for anyone considering cutting down or quitting marijuana. It has plenty of useful information and a very skilled board of doctors behind. There is also a free guide, click here to find out more.
  • r/leaves on Reddit: an amazing community, where I found plenty of my podcast guests. A great resource for relatable stories, accountability and just overall support on your journey. You need a Reddit account to post and comment. 

How do I get your program

From 1st of Nov 2022, you can no longer purchase my program online. I switched to appointment system, because I want to make sure we are fit to work together, before you start and commit.

If you are serious about quitting and ready to take the action, then please book your appointment below. All the appointments are anonymous and done via Zoom. Please reserve about 20mins for the call, microphone is necessary, camera optional. 

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